Only When I Lose Myself - Depeche Mode Do you ever think about how small we are? Not even just that, but just how short a time we're here for in the grand scheme of things and how huge and awesome the universe really is? I'm reading a book Jon let me borrow called 'The Age of Spiritual Machines' and it's really making my brain hurt. And I'm only in the first couple of chapters! I wish I could somehow stick around for the next couple of hundred years, just to see what happens to the human race. I don't think I'd necisarily want to live through it all because, well let's face it, we're fucked and it's very quickly building up to a breaking point. But just to know what's going to happen and how all the peices are going to fall together... I feel like I'm going to be missing out on a lot. But, if you look at it that way, there's a whole lot of history I missed out on as well... But the future is so much more interesting and mysterious.
I'm kinda thinking that way a lot lately. I'm sick of looking back so much and living through the past, when I've got a great opportunity right in front of me to let go of everything else, and make something happen. I need to stop being afraid of change, and trying to keep things the way they used to be and never can be again. People change, even when they try not to and situations change. Yesterday I was talking to a friend I hadn't seen in months, and she made me realise that if you go into a relationship (or any other situation in life) knowing that things will change and people will change as time goes on, you can make that relationship last so much longer. If you try to keep things the same, eventually, you're just two people expecting the other person to be someone they aren't anymore. It's not fair to either of you.
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I just read what I wrote... That was deep. I think we've made a real breakthrough here tonight folks!
