Good For Me - Above and BeyondSo much has happened, I don't think I'm going to even bother twisting my brain that way to remember it all and explain it so you'll understand all that I'm about to say...
Stephen is gone. He left sometime this morning for Toronto to live with his brother. I didn't say goodbye and neither did he. I feel so strange, I mean, I always knew that he was eventually leaving and I'd probably never talk to him again, but now that moment has come and gone and I have to admit, it caught me a little off guard. I shouldn't care that he's out of my life. After six months of being treated like dirt, you would expect me to have built up some sort of barrier, something to keep his sweet words out of my head and heart. But, I used to forgive him so easily, I guess nothing's really changed... Even with what he's been saying about me lately behind my back. But I deserve that.
I fell for someone else. And so far, he hasn't hurt me. I think he likes me. I don't wanna fuck this up, but, let's face it... that's what I do best. I'm happy. Which kinda makes me nervous, because 'what goes up, must come down' and now I'm just bracing myself for the inevitable fall I'm doing my best to avoid.
Okay. This is it. One book closed, another one opened. I'm gonna be better, at everything. I'm gonna get rid of all that crap that I've made into habits. Maybe I'll be able to keep the things that make me happy.
Everyone said they had a good night and I had a great time! I'll write more later, right now I'm going to go enjoy this good mood I'm in.
