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09 Mar '07-23:14
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Get Stoned - Hinder

I went winter camping for a couple days this week with my class. For the most part I had fun, but at night I was colder than I have ever been in my entire life. Even standing around a big fire did nothing. When I crawled into my sleeping bag, I knew that I would not be having a nice night's sleep. In fact, I think I only slept maybe an hour or so. I was shivering so much, there was no way I'd be able to relax enough.
I didn't get many photos, because it was too damn cold to take off my mitts and work the camera, but on the ride home I got this video of Dylan. We basicly didn't drink anything for two days because all the water we brought froze, and melting snow took too long and simply eating snow takes more energy from your body to melt it, which isn't really good. So, by this point we were all thirsty as fuck trying to melt our water.



Stephen called me the other night. He said he misses me and wants to hang out with me. I'm afraid because I never know when he's being sincere anymore. But we hung out last night and watched the Nine Inch Nails dvd together, from the show we went to. He said he was sorry for being a jerk and basicly I found out that he still has feelings for me, he wants to hang out with me more, cuddle, kiss and all that jazz, but he doesn't want a relationship. He was all the benefits of one though. And I want to be there for him now, I want to show him how much I've changed and that maybe we can work this all out now... But I think that label of a 'relationship' is what he's afraid of. I don't know what he wants. He says being with me makes him happy... and it makes me happy too... if I just don't think about how I'm not worth committing to.

I want to show him I've changed... but a part of me wonders if it's worth fighting for.

¶ - By abby in School

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